Reflection
lyrics and music by Alec Stanley
There's a presence in the silence
and the presence terrifies me
My stomach muscles tighten
knowing the presence is she
who's come to do me violence
I'm face to face with me
I hate myself I wanna hurt myself
I am everything I do not want to be
When I look at the mirror hanging on my wall
everything is wrong with who I see
I keep falling into habits
that I thought that I'd transcended
I know that I broke your heart
It's not what I intended
Wounds that drove me to these things
Are open and unmended
I hate myself because I hurt myself
And hurt you as well
Maybe I'm Inanna again descending into hell
But how many times must I give my flesh
to Erishkigil?
If I do surrender now, will I not return again?
I have harmed my lovers
my family and my friends
Cruel dark reflection of myself
please let this be the end
I'm gonna let myself destroy myself
I pray nothing is reborn
The blade's edge claims every ounce of flesh
And every ounce I mourn
The pain't almost too much to bear
as the inmost dark is torn